|Tomorrow and beyond.
||[Aug. 22nd, 2011|03:06 am]
Sometime during the course of tomorrow I will find out, or at least I'm supposed to find out, if my partner and I will have made it to the SEA games, representing Singapore in the Nage No Kata. This is following an appeal, the result of which we were initially supposed to find out on the 15th, but which got postponed.|
I'm having mixed feelings to be honest. On one side, If qualified, this could potentially be the only, and at the most significant level of representation of the state in Judo, something I'd only dreamed of previously. It's not the way I envisaged it when I was younger, but I'm happy nonetheless.
On the other hand, though, making it to the SEA Games in November would mean that I would have to go to Japan on a training stint for 2 weeks, as well as be in Jakarta for at least a week for the competition proper, and this is over and above intensified training sessions. As can be imagined, that is substantial time out of the office, and this is even worse given that I'm in a sales role.
From here there are two ways to go about getting this resolved, I think. Been thinking about it for awhile. One, that the employer is supportive, and says, go ahead, but try to hit as much of your targets as possible, and all is good, or two, that the employer says no, please prioritise and choose between the two. Now that would be a little bit of a problem. Having played this in my head over and over again, I would perhaps take the opportunity to look for another job, since I can't say I'm perfectly happy, much less adept at the sales role. But yet that small little part of my mind is a little afraid, mainly of changes, but also because my current company is not exactly a bad place to be in, even with the imbeciles I suffer at work.
So whats a indecisive, worried boy gotta do? On one palm I've got my career, and on the other I've got my dreams, and I potentially gotta choose one.
I guess tomorrow we'll know.
How wonderful life is, really. And I'm not being sarcastic.